Today cloudy day here.There are still a bunch of clothes not yet wash...tired i guess...I came back from Penang. I was there to make prayers for my father, brother,sis in law, eldest sister and 2nd bro.That event take a whole day to do. It is a tired event but at least everyone are relieve now. I just hope their souls are in peace.
I got a call from my mum today and i was unhappy because my mum is hinting me to break up with my boyfriend.I am confuse with my family. My family never really take notice on my matters but they will starting to object my stuff when comes to my relationship.I been thru so many heartbreaks does any of them comes to comfort me?I was depression for a while does anyone of them comes to help me?All have their own family...yeah all same excuses...then why this time comes to control me.Well, some even know my problems but just keep quiet. Good you all just like to be good ppl and when something happen you all just blame to me.I just realize how unhappy my bro is when he is alive cos he cant be with his love one and he also loose all his friends just because of one person and now he is gone all just come back to him and be nice to him...but the fact is he is dead...I am still grief eventhough I also have my own problems here.
I been jobless for some time now and beside my mum and 2nd sis are helping me others are just keep quiet...and when problem arise...they are those who talk louder than anything.All keep telling me how they dissapointed with me and my bf but have you all ever think what you have done here??Beside gossips,tell lies and find mistakes on others...wat else you really do???
My bf been very nice to me he purposely fly over to Sabah to attend my bro funeral but i never tot that the ending will be like this.My bf been very supportive towards my life..he is the one help me move house, he is the one bring my piggies to vets, he is the one who go to fetch my sis at the airport...I guess none of this important to my family. I dun blame them or angry with them for wat happen cos part of the matter also my mistake. The big mistake is me.If my family wants me to choose between my bf and them I willing to stay alone...I felt so hopelss...i never have such a tough decision before.i been begging them to stop in my heart cos if i beg them sure they will say I siding my bf...So my life is so confusing here...Oh Lord Help me pls...GOD BLESS YOU ALL...
