There is a JOY in my heart~~

Long time never write in here been busy with many stuff lately.Finally I passed my Insurance examination...unexpected but I make it.hahaha....It been a tough time for me to take up a book and read it.Now just need to wait for a month to get my cert and then can start my insurance adventure.
Lately I see alot of things if i recall since my bro's death. Although he is no longer here but I missed him deeply.Sometimes I wake up and thinking why GOD take him home so fast?I know GOD have his own reason but why and I still waiting for the answer.I prayed to GOD everyday to bless his soul and also blessed everyone in my family.My mum is more cheerful now and it is a relief to me. I know my prayers been answered.GOD have starting to reveal the things that I ask WHY to him...from time to time.
I also found out many ppl hate Christian so much just because they met ppl who comdemn their own religion without realising it. That is so sad.The most recent incident that I face with was ppl been telling my bf that if u take the bread and red wine from the church then u will die and say cannot eat or drink that if u are not baptist.OMG!!! I am so mad when my bf told me that I was so angry with what I heard.Those ppl also dunno wat they are talking about. If the consequence so serious then many new believer will be "mati katak".I wonder does they really read the bible?Then second incident is I was choked with fish bone last Friday and in no choice consequences my bf parents was so panic they make mantra water for me to drink with the hope that I dun need to be so suffering...so I drank it without hesistation yes, to many christians sure cursing me and saying i am doing sins...but to my understanding I am just hoping to make the parents not so panic and make they more relief...and i do not see any bad of doing that.
I followed my bf back to Kampar and Ipoh to pray his grandparents.I done my family side and enjoy the family gathering and eating and drinking...it is really a great memories...when i back to Sabah my family no longer angry with me being a Christian. That is a joy to me.:) I know who I believe in and I will still follow the chinese culture.I never complain for anything that is why I wrote here is to tell those who read this will understand not all Christians are extremist. At least I am not.I was scholded cos i am a Christian and drank the mantra water by my bf relatives which I am very mad...because they are extremist with their own religion too...I have been tolerate but you people come to attack me.I was unhappy the first day I arrive there...but luckily my bf and her mum was defending for me.One of the future daughter is an extremist doesnt mean that I will be the same as her...they hate her and eventually hated me as well...but after I prayed their parents all are very good to me pula...this is called HUMAN la.When I told them I will not convert my bf to Christian no one believe me...but now hopefully they know I mean no harm I do not want a religion convertion to make whole family fights and unhappy...It is kinda sad when ppl misunderstand with what you do.My bf's mum this time was very happy because I make her proud.In fact i am also very happy to see her so proud and happy.I now hope those relative will stop judging me.After I came back to KL...never know why I got a joy in my heart...I can feel it.I dunno how to tell but i know it is a good feeling. Happy and feel so free....like bird flying... so weird but i guess I am doing the right thing and that is why there is a joy in me.Long time i never felt this way...From time to time I learn many things without I realize it.Last time i been too busybody looking at other's life and ignore my own life..but now stop looking at others and concentrate on ur own life will bring good things to u and ppl around u.That is for sure...ok la better pen off now...u all takecare and Cheers!!
GOD BLESS U!