This morning I wake up headache,heavy head and moody. I been struggling with my job.I still want to continue with it although already 3 months no sales. I just do not like people push me.I have being push.
I attended a Chinese cellgroup from my chinese session group. I been joining them a few times and I enjoy all the members sharing and warm welcome. They are sweet and nice people. I feel happy when I am able to meet them and also Pastor.:D I have not attending church for the past few weeks due to transport and lazy I guess...I just have many excuses to myself lately.In fact i had no idea what is going on me.I checked with my sis in KK and she said alot people still struggle after being baptism. Wow...i never know that but now experince it...fall down hurt my knee.Anyway now I am fine.I just have tough time with my job that is all.
God did response to my constant begging which after 6 months joining this insurance job i did not search for new job.Burn the bridge as what my manager told me...yeah to me it is a bad advise. When my saving is getting lower and lower it will force me to find some other job to sustain my life.I got rent to bear, pets to takecare ,internet to afford and food and transports.I cannot just depend all on my saving...sooner or later it will also gone...So i went to search for a part time job and fortunately I found it...and now i am taking training and hope that i can pass it and then able to do the job. It is a part time job only...kinda fun too...LOL...I will tell more about it when I sucessfully pass the training.I thank GOD that he listening to my cries for help.
Tonight I feel much more peace in my heart and even meditation also not a problem with me. Last time I try to meditate and it always makes my heart pounding and my mind will think alot of stuffs....but tonight all i see is just a blank pitch dark in my mind.Then we sang worship songs...and in sudden I feel a heavy force on me and I nearly lost my balance luckily still can stand still...hahaha it is really surprise me. I did ask my housemate and she told me Holy Spirit come upon me. :) After tat my heart feel so touched and tears rolled out non stop. Hahaha...Praise the Lord this is small small miracle that you can feel when we are close to Him...He never leave us all alone in the dark He will just stand beside you and see what you want to do next? Afterall everything also He have planned for us before we are born.We talked abt depression and emotional problems on certain group of ppl that need consultants. It remind me of one my my relative which I really hope she finally can find peace now...It choke me when I heard this sharing.We felt the hurt and pain her family go through but for her it might be a relief...so I hope now she is in a better place. May God bless her soul...
This is first time I felt Holy Spirit upon me...each time i just heard my housemate told me about the feeling of fainting when being touched by pastor...but now I know the feeling and if fact i find it really special.LOL.So silly of me but I am glad that I can feel this...When I share my testimonial about GOD i just cant stop talking about Him. Well, people too bad I can continue cos now already 1am...I still need to go to work so therefore I will write more other stuff tomorrow. You all takecare and have a great week ahead! May GOD Bless U~~
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