19 January 2010

This is a sad day to me and my family.I got a phone call from my KL sis and told me my bro in hospital now cos he fall down and seem like got stroke.So middle of night without sleeping I packed my bag and waited for my sis to come and pick me.My mum and me and my bro's children take first flight to Tawau on the day itself. We arrived around 10.30am and then when we arrive my bro condition very serious and was in ICU. My heart was so heavy but i keep having confident that he will wake up...so after his brain scanning we finally got the chance to see him and he is unconcious but his face look like normal just the feet feels very cold...as my mum told me ur bro's feet very cold and i said well, aircon make his feet cold...in fact it is not a good sign cos chinese believe tat usually the soul start leaving the body from feet first...Then we left his eldest son with him and we went back to take bath and came back...when we went back to his place and within an hour we saw a van came into the yard and my bro secretary walk in and told me the news I was stunned and cant control my tears...I am speechless...really shocked!I never expect that my bro will leave us in such a speed.
I will just tell my feelings here...I am very sad that my bro leave us so fast but do have a good news that we will have a new nephew and I hope the baby will healthy and handsome like my bro. Many ppl grief during that period and we all are worried about my mum luckily she is very strong and brave to face the fact.
The past few days I was asking myself...where does dead ppl go after they die?Many said when i go then I will come back and tell you but so far none of them come back and tell me wat happen.I already have bad feelings for the pass few weeks just i dunno it will be such a tragedy.Once a while I will still thinking of give my bro a call just to ask him how is he doing...sometimes i just forgotten that he already gone. I just talked to him last 3 weeks...and now he is in an urns.I hope he really rest in Peace...Just let him walk his way to Heaven and rest in peace. I am still in grief...i just cant shake the memories away...Although I do not spent much time with my Bro but he really care to all his siblings just that none of us notice it.
Bro, do not worry just go we will takecare of mum and as for your children they are big enough they will be able to takecare of themself. Sorry ppl , my mind is blank now...will write other time and hope that it will be a good news. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Learning a new project.

Today sunny day early morning saw the sunshine and was very happy cos I can wash my laundry and it will dry in 2-3 hours...The last few days a lot new things happen in my life...First of all, I got an idea how to spend my time while i am looking for my job yeah i am still jobless.(lol) The new project that I am into was Amigurumi it is a crochet work from Japan. I never like needle work since i am young. I always never good in these matter. I never know why i got the interest into this and last few days I went to the craft shop in Sg Wang and bought a yarn and needle. I even have the shape that I wanted to crochet. (surprise surprise) without knowing any basics so I log into youtube and see how ppl do it and to my surprise I learn the basic after a few hours...yeah some people might take only 5 minutes but i am consider ok. I am so glad. My first project was making a brown longan for my housemate not a nice one but i am sure I can make a better one for her soon. Thanks Selina for accepting that Longan.Hahaha.Now i am able to make more than longan...I know how to make rectangle and also round, ears and going to start with arm and legs...going to assemble my forst project soon will let u all see how it turn out...dun expect like a nice one cos bear in mind I am newbie in this. :)

Since I have applied some jobs but never receive any calls or emails so i just take this craft to let me calm down from my dissapointed feeling. I am not regret that I left my old company because after 4.5 yrs i learn alot but never get any improvement in my job from an agent into an email handler is just a small leap.(a baby leap) I cannot that the unfairness that potrait towards me.Therefore I let go of my favourite job of all.Everytime I went to interview ppl wil notice my age with the job I apply. I dun mind to take up the junior job but why have to mind about my age???Age more important that experince???Wat kind of logic is that?Old doesnt mean slow ok.Young ppl also can be slow in job too.He he he sorry overreact about this matter because i really tired facing these kind of ppl.My mum been nagging me for sometimes telling me I should not let go of my old job i dun dare to tell her why cos I know my mum very well, she rarely give me positive point when I tell her wat happen in the office.So better shut my mouth off and just pretend lo no choice right...Mum is always mum.

She made Laksa at my Kl sis'place within 2 hours finished.She never cooked Laksa and this time she came here she was very happy cos watever she cooked all finished within hour.I am so glad that the kids love her food and she was happy about it. I wonder does my kids have these luck?I also have learn how to cook lately although it is a simple meals but share with housemates makes my food taste better.(lol) Maybe all of us not really a good cook so dunno which is tasteful and which is not important is not too burn or too salty then it should be eatable.I slim down 2.5kg just stick to my vege diet...eat as usual rice and 2 veges and eat fruits...I am surprise when i see my kgs drop after 3 days eat veges...furthermore i not steam my vege but cooked with little meat.I wil keep this ind of lifestyle. I kinda like it alot.

I thank GOD for giving the new Idea and also some other project that I gonna do if I dun find a job.CNY is around the corner but here in KL seem a little quiet maybe cos economy is ok ok only and things all are going to increase by 10%it make alot of effect to everyone. I just hope that everyone can enjoy CNY within their budget. I havent shop for my CNY clothes yet i wonder wat kind of fashion for 2010?One of my old neighbour get married surprisingly. Why i said it is surprisingly cos he is a nice man with naive behaviour and friendly.I move away for a year and then one day the mother came to my sis place and invite her to attend her son's wedding WOW wat a shock!!! it really shock all of us. I am glad that he found his life partner and wish him to have a good Marriage Ah Guan~~Many stuff happening around all of us like Haiti earthquake cost 100,000 lifes...Let us all pray for the victims and survivors. we should thank GOD that we do not have such disaster in Malaysia. So please appreaciates the country and love the country like you love ur loves one.So GOD BLESS U All...Till then tata~~

The 7th day of 2010.

Happy New Year to all my friends who read this.Wow a whole new year and glad that bad 2009 is gone for good...hahaha. When i review my 2009 one thing came up to me and that is appreciation.Weird huh?I may jobless more than 7 months since last year April but i never take this matter as sad and regretful event in fact i look at it as an opportunity for me to start a new.Although I still not able to find a job but everyday life still go thru nicely cos maybe i am too straight minded enough to think about life and money.
My family started to worry about my condition cos i have no job and saving is getting lesser and lesser. I want to thank GOD cos He always there for me whenever I am lost of direction and seem a failure ahead of me I always pray for wisdom, strength and love. My mum been nagging me about find a job since now a new year and I should find a job now.I have tried to find job everyday and even applied for it but seem no one saw my application i guess...I also dun ask much now why i should worry so much when things just dun go anywhere.
I thankful to my mum who always nag me (hahaha) she may sometimes sound negative but she also just worry too much about me therefore she nags I just keep quiet.what important to me now is her. What can make her happy then i will follow her advise.I also really thankful to my KL sis a lot cos of critical stuff happened in the past but she really love my mum alot and able to make her happy...in fact i love my sis alot too just dunno how to tell her sometimes.My family is quietly supporting me last time i used to blame all my siblings cos they just care of their families...and even i am unhappy or hurt no one ever offer help...but now i know...sometimes things happen for a reason and I learn it from it...Finally i learn my lesson to be independant and be happy as well.
I stop writing this blog for a while cos i have much negative energy in me that is why i never want to spoilt my blog.No one likes bad stuff...In 2009, I learn to stay outside by myself and also learn how to cook too...which I think this is the achievement that achieve in 2009.Lame huh but it is special to me.Recently I got many ingredients to cook so been cooking at home most of the time if not going to my bf place.It sometimes maybe tasty and sometimes tasteless but still it is my own creation...I learn my recipies from you tube,my mum, my sisters and my housemate. So many ppl tell me how to cook impossible still dunno how to cook ma...kekeke I am learning to make cake and dessert yeah yeah i know i cannot have dessert but i can always cut the sugar intakes one ma...
My Bf is the one encourage me to write blog he got read it but i dunno same goes to some of my friends...My blog maybe not as colourful as others but mine is more in life experince...that is worth a reading sometimes...Tonight i wil be cook dinner for myself hehe...the seaweed soup and fried bitter melon. I really enjoy cook and the other day I also cook soup and tomato fried eggs and eat with one of my housemate.Thank you to her for taking care of my piggies...My piggies are officially stay with me for a year now...and they are good gals and give me less problems...i love them alot and sometimes even my bf also jealous over them...kekeke...it is so funny.Well, i gtg now I need to bath those piggies...very dirty piggy now.So continue other time...takecare and God Bless U!