Begining

Have you ever wonder why sometimes we feel so down and never know wat happen in the future?I always facing this mood...never know why...All i know is that after being jobless for few months and I started to think alot of things and plan and what i am doing right now is that going to ruin my life forever?

I am the one decided to resigned from both jobs and never know why lately keep having nightmare that i am back into my job and it suck...everyone look down at me at what i am doing.I think i am insecure with myself.I am glad that i am still able to survive after few months not working...Thank God for that.My bf job is more better than before although always busy but he still try to spend time with me...I am happy about that. I attended a seminar last week and on Monday i will attend the first meeting. I hope this job can improve myself in attitude toward work,life and my family.I am not complaining that i am unhappy right now in fact i am consider lucky than many others.I just dun feel good when I trying to do something rights and being pour cold water on it.I dun think it is the best way to give advise.To all out there if no one understand my blog this time it is understandable cos it is a blog to think and not to read and forget.I may not have alot of good wordings and grammars but one thing i can sure is this blog is about life...

I always wondering if my life can comes in second time what will be my choice?Will my bf stil be my bf? Will I be jobless with no point of direction?Where i can find peace now?People said your life without regret does anyone really live without regret?I am into depression again...long time never experince this before. Maybe I should go out and have some fun now...I think i have to stop now cos suddenly down feeling strike and if continue all will be into black stories...so will continue in next blog...Love all and GOD Bless U!

My guinea piggies

Today I am going to talk about my pet the guinea pig. I got two of them both females. One is Bugsy and one is Bubble.They are my best friends of all now. They are gentle, mischief and funny.I have them almost 8 months now. At first when I first brought them home they just 3 months old and so small and fragile and now they are huge and strong and noisy(hahaha)

They are nothing like dogs and cats...they dun make sound unless Food...food make them wheek. Really cute sound.Many ppl having them after watching Bedtime Stories which there is a character Guinea pig name Bugsy. I choose them also because of that movie.Many ppl said that they are really cute animal and very gentle.My piggies are notti ones too...they likes green veges and hay alot. they eat almost every hour if there is a food they will eat it all so that is why need to control them. Give them pellets, hay and vege once in the morning and once in the evening.They will wheek me whenever I open the fridge door.Both of them have different personalities...one is gentle,scare of all things and don't like to be touch..and one friendly,bonding with me and love to massage...I was not really like the piggy that dun likes to be touch which is Bubble but after in the forum and ask the members there and was told that there is a kind of piggy that dun like ppl touch them. So from that day on I accept her as my fave piggy as well...this is her personality which i will have to accept them.
They are spoilt by my housemate hahah who feed them big amount of vege all the time which they wheek at her all the time when she came back home...when i am sad or unable to think I will take them out and cuddle them and comb them with tooth brush they love it and talk to them...tell them my problems...and they just look at u with the cuddly face and listen. There is once i heard a story where a lady got a guinea pig which lick off her tears when she is sad...I believe this happen bit because the piggy is thirsty but animals do listen to their master happy and sorrow...they will also can feel our emotion.I did regret when i got them in the first place cos i am not familair with these animals and first time handle them. well, i am very lucky that both of them dun get sick that much and was health only got mites attack which i get rid of it...hopefully they will be more happy than before...I even have put on a bathroom mat for them cos they tend to hide under newspaper when i did not have the bathroom mat then. they likes to make tunnel and play under it. It will be difficult for me to clean their cage...but now having this bathroom mat no more tunnel making and more cleaner except both of them are not happy with it...cos can play hide and seek anymore...hahaha..Sometimes I wanted to be as simple as I can but i just cant i have no idea why...with them around me my life get more simple cos i just live like them...dun care so much watever happen it happen for a reason so just bear with it...
Currently I am not wokring been jobless for about a month now...still looking for a job. Today realize that the job that I applied rejected so no choice i just need to go ahead and find a new one instead. There are 4 jobs and two rejected and two on process...Keep finger cross i am sure i will able to find a job very soon...Alright guys i got to feed those piggies...Takecare and God Bless Ya!

Nando on 10-07-2009

Today i tot to myself that what i gonna do on my 30th birthday? So i was online until noon doing nothing but was happy seeing all the birthday wishes pouring out into my wall....so happy about it...Then by noon i was talking to my ex colleague and then end up my housemate , my ex colleague and me heading to Nando near Alpha Angle to have out lunch and here are some of the funny pictures... These are our orders and looks really delicious~~3 of us and one of us are having a half chicken and with rice and chips...wow she really can eat alot which others salute to her...Hahaha
This is my order just quarter chicken and chips and coleslaw....very nice~~










This is another order which is half chicken with rice and coleslaw.





These are the gals that celebrate the day with me...my ex colleagues...






All full, happy and jolly now...kekeke....I cant believe that my housemate can finished her half chicken order....we are laughing at her that she cant finish the dish but unbelievable... thanks for the joy you gals bring to me...I felt blessed and this year I received more wishes than last year and it is a special on its own way...Great!!!Oh lastly will be dessert...I have bought some doughnuts to share with my fiancee and his family as his mum plan to make a small dinner on Sun to celebrate her son and my birthday...and she also gave me a blouse too maybe will wear it this weekend just to make her happy....in fact i like the blouse too....very cute!Here are my doughnuts...but i just gave to my fiancee and his mum enjoy i just eat a bit cos i dun really a doughnut person.

Ta Dah....this is wat i mean purely heaven (chocolate type) All chocolate choices....Alright ppl i gtg now...so enjoy the photos and do comment ;) Cheers all and God Bless U~~

New Stage The number 30 (Happy Birthday to myself)

Happy Birthday Emily, that is what I got right on 12 midnight a call from my fiancee...I am happy that he called but unable to smile cos i realize that i am going into a new stage now. I am turning 30 and still nothing really change since 10yrs ago.Maybe I did change without I realizing it.
This year there is something different from my previous birthdays...Unexpected things happen and i felt blessed!First of all, I got different ppl from different places wish me happy birthday but instead of today they wish me as far as 4 days earlier...(LOL) anyway still fine with it and until today i saw a youtube video that one of my friend send me wish me happy birthday and it is really funny and i really appreciates it alot. Thanks alot Robert!Beside that I also met up with an old friend that lost contact about 3-4 yrs and the reason lost contact is very silly cos i tot he was a Gay and I cannot accept it...when got chance want to say sorry to him...cos i am not suppose to be so silly to angry a person cos his sexuality.Thinking of it finds that it really funny and stupid.
It been almost 3 weeks i am not working and at the same time alot of ppl been asking me how are you and have you found a job and i was like why everyone being so concern?I felt pressure with all these attention and furthermore I got this dizziness which they just dun go away.Finally on 9th July got the blood result and saying that I got high cholesterol...that is why i feeling so uneasy all the time.So now i need to have a strict diets and exercise more. I am not sure which workout i need to join. First of all i need to find new job and then only see how it goes.
I really wanted to thank GOD for listening to all my prayers and i felt so loved by HIM.When I felt all down, unhappy and lost he always will be with me to go thru it. Many ppl might think it is silly or watever u wanna think.All i know is GOD really listens to all prayers no matter small or big.Many special things happen between GOD and me.Currently i am still lost in finding a job but of course now i know wat i should do first thing first. My health.I will want to care about my body more now and then only start to find new job. Once everything are back to normal in my health then I will back to work again.
My fiancee being there for me all the time and I am glad that his work also getting better from day to day and i wil try my best to care his parents like i care my mum... the reason i want to go to KK to visit my sister is to meet up with my mum but seem no one really care.Hopefully i can get the Xiamen ticket and then I can have afamily trip with my family...:) my last family trip was in Korea and hmm...that was about 4-5 yrs ago...Times really flies...Oh so fast now again around 1am now..so i better pen off now and hopefully everything will be alright. Love all readers and GOD bless you all!! Cheers!!!